Just keep calm and carry on...

It's really hard to get over things that you know shouldn't bother you.

You see, although I can't hold a grudge to save my life, I still have a hard time not letting people get the best of me. I don't want them to get under my skin or act like they bother me because that's what they want. They want a reaction. And the best way to get rid of it, is to ignore it. Push it to the side. Don't let it bother me.

easy right?

um......NO.

It's really hard to play cool and act like everything is just great. because, not everything is great. It's not exactly the most comfortable position when they are throwing things at you and God tells you to just ignore it. Um, hello? I CAN'T! I want to so badly fight back.

But if I did, I wouldn't be any better then them.

I've learned that your goal in life is not to get your value from others. It's not worth it. People change, and they move on when they don't want to be around you anymore.

If I went around trying to get my value from everyone, I'd be an emotional wreck.

Just remember to stay focused on what God has called you to do. And remember He is the only One you should be living for.

If they are your friends, they will stick to you. You don't need to worry about the others!

Just keep calm and carry on.

Does she even blog anymore...?

To answer that question, yes I do blog. I just haven't been blogging on this one lately.

Sorry.

I don't know why I don't. I have no life--well Ok, I have a life. Just not the most interesting one. Hmm let's see. Well CHRISTMAS WOO! That was pretty cool, I got a couple things that I am so thankful for. Then I went to a new years eve party and can I just say that was awesome:) and now I am back to school..ugg what a horrible routine. So my school is pretty chill--I can't really complain. But I wish my life was a bit more eventful. I have not been feeling very inspired lately and it could be because I spend my time at home....doing nothing. I know, why do you even read my blog??? hahah. But I will try to stay more on top of this because I do not want to neglect my poor blog.

When it all comes down to it though, I just have a lot on my mind. TONS AND BEYOND. And I am trying to shove it away but I've been doing that... and now it has just completely bursted. I guess I deserved that. huuu....happens to all of us right?

So I will try to get that all worked out. And I will continue blogging-more consistently. In the mean time, maybe you should get a life. Instead of wasting your time reading this. I would imagine so if you are, that you haven't been outside in a couple days. ;)

Seriously get off your butt and do something.

I will too!

Think about this...

So I found this today

One of my friends showed it to me and I think it's so amazing.

And absolutely true.

It makes you think differently:

The creator of the UNIVERSE took the precious time in creating you perfectly, EXACTLY how He wanted you. OUR GOD wanted YOU. Therefore He made it happen! If God didn't WANT you, He wouldn't have created you. Yet HE loves you so deeply and wants you so badly that HE would create you PERFECTLY in His image, because He knows He can only be in the presence of perfection. And that's how much He desires to be WITH you

Sucks...

I'm so lost in everything. Ugg.

3 words.

High.School.Sucks.

basically...

*sigh* *BIG sigh*

:'(

Blogging ain't easy...

Blogging is not an easy thing to do.

At first it's addicting and you have plenty of things to write about. Your advice, stories, problems, quotes, and so on. At first it's easy because maybe one person follows you. At first it's simple because you can write about whatever you feel like. As time goes on though, you may realize the tough job in blogging that you had so willingly volunteered yourself for.

Blogging may seem easy and fun but don't be fooled by the pretty personalized backgrounds and the interesting photos; It's tough. Post to post you have to decide what you will write based on your viewers. Even though it's YOUR blog you still want the satisfaction of people actually enjoying it. What will they think? How will they see it through their eyes? Does this actually make sense? A bunch of questions coming to your mind as you start to type a new post.

Another thing is the more people that follow you the less you can actually share your feelings on the blog. Like talking about certain things or your opinions on other topics. Some things you just can't write about because you don't want that person to know about it. It's A LOT of pressure no matter how you see it. One post could change someone's opinion of you and even though I say all the time about how you shouldn't care what people think, you don't want to be labeled.

Keeping up with it is a WHOLE other story. Life gets busy. And sometimes you just don't have the time to sit down and think of what you should blog about. Another thing is WHAT DO I WRITE ABOUT????? When it seems as though your life may be relatively uneventful it's hard to think of something actually worth posting to your viewers.

Blogging is a tough hobby. Many people call it quits because they just can't deal with it anymore. Not that I blame them, I actually understand because hey, I've deleted a couple of mine but if you keep focused and work it right you can successfully make it through blogging!

It might turn out to be a very good thing to have! :)

But God's word says...

“You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you," -Matthew 5: 43-44

Yeah....I am well. Let's just say not to hot at that verse. In fact, tonight I was talking about how much I hate that verse. Why? because has to be one of the most frustrating, challenging, verses ever in the bible. I certainly don't want to love my enemies....thats why they are my enemies!!! It's so much easier to be mean right back at them! To stab them when they stab me. BUT GOD'S WORD SAYS, to love your enemies and pray for them. Or as I like to say, Kill them with kindness.

I wouldn't be all buddy-buddy with them or tell them all your deepest darkest secrets but I would hold back saying something when they say something rude to me or do something when they do something horrible to me. At the end of the day you gained nothing and where does it get you? deeper into a hole of stress.

This week I am really going to try to remember the 4 important words PastorFurtick gave me this sunday, But.God's.Word.Says. In the english language , the word "but" cancels out with what you said before it and replaces it with what you said after it. So I try to remember that when I start complaining about something stupid. Cause His Word has the highest authority! And He should be my priority!

Learning...

I'm learning.

I'm learning not to care what people think. Who cares if he said she said this! I know its not true. I mean It gets really old when people go around saying someone said this or someone feels this way about you. I'm done with it all! who cares! I don't! All I need to focus on is what God has planned for me and what I need to be doing for Him - Not doing things based on whatever anyone else thinks of you. I'm going to be me no matter what. If you don't like me. Fine. If you do, awesome! Its just a big wad of stress that doesn't need to be added to the to-do-list. I'll wear what I want, be with the people I want to hang out with, talk to the people that talk to me and do my own thing. Its my life after all! Not theirs. They can go worry about themselves. Its really not that big of a deal.

Plus, when we get all caught up in "ohhh he said that" or "OMW SHE SAID THAT???" Things get way out of context. Besides, everyone is worried about themselves anyways. If they talk about you, they obviously don't care about you. Worry about yourself! I guarantee life will be so much better when you don't get caught up on what everyone thinks of you. The only one you should be concerned about is God.

So I encourage you to work on that! I'll be right in the same boat with ya on that one! I have major struggles with that. We can do this right?

Don't care what people think. You know yourself better then them anyways.