..Do not let people look down upon you because you are young...

Friday, October 15, 2010

When I was little...

Being little…a memory most people wish to go back on. Though we might not remember that much because we were, in-fact, little. Still, it’s a nice thing to think of.

When I was little all I had to worry about was what I was going to play that day; that was the only thing I had to decide. What movie to watch or what video game-simple and fun stuff was all but only my responsibility.

When I was little I only had to pick which kind of drink I wanted with my lunch or what snack to munch on later.

When I was little the only scar was made on your elbow or knee. When I was little…goodbyes only meant until tomorrow

When I was little I didn’t care how I looked or worried about who was really my friend.

When I was little boys were only to chase on the playground and the only guy in my life was my dad.

When I was little I only had to say my prayers before bed; not saying my science notes out loud to myself.

When I was little I only dreamed about today…

No worries. Now I am growing up aren’t I? the Legos and Barbie dolls are stored away and play dress up toys are replaced with a desk with papers and eraser debris sprinkled around. Where my bows are replaced with make up everywhere and a hair dryer. Where my little girl clothes are replaced with boots and flats. Where my no worries are replaced with responsibilities.

Being little seems like such a fairytale…and we all couldn’t wait to grow up…

Better left unsaid...

There are many things I'd like to tell people.

Some really awesome things, some not so nice things, and some just little things.

No matter what it is, I always end up keeping it to myself; all bottled up in my head. Some may say, "Why do you do that?" but I guess I feel like some thing are better left unheard.

Don't get me wrong, there are days I just want to get in their face and say it. but...I don't. It's frustrating and aggravating! You would think I'd be good at telling people how it is or how I really feel but I DON'T. I can see it happening in my head and then I say to my self "No, don't do that. You will just look stupid or cause more drama."

Another reason of why I don't is because, I can't hold a grudge for more than an hour (prob. even less). Yeah. Great. wonderful-woohoo. yeah, no. You may think it is fine and dandy that I am able to do that but, there comes a point where I feel like screaming "NO MORE!" I don't like people running over me like an old carpet that says "welcome".

I always say, "No, you are not doing this again. You are going to stand up for yourself and tell them you can't be their friend!" Like that changes anything. *rolls eyes* I may be all high and mighty then but you wait a good 30 min and I'll say, "It's all good-no biggy." As you can see, I get very annoyed with myself sometimes.


I mean, sometimes I think it's good that I can-I live a more peaceful life but that doesn't mean it doesn't go away-it's all still there inside of me. I do think some things really don't need to be said and some things you do need to keep to yourself because it really shouldn't be that big of a deal. I suppose this is what this blog is for- my feelings and thoughts but I guess what I am trying to say is that I am trying to figure out (and learn) that either things need to be said or if-

they are better left unsaid...





Monday, October 11, 2010

"These are a few of my favorite things!"...

I like chocolate, but not just any chocolate-DARK chocolate

I like fall and the colors the leaves turn....and the fresh air

I like hugs...hugs are always great but not the crappy side ones- a real hug.

I like to laugh....ok I love to laugh....a day without laughter is a day wasted.

I like letters and notes written to me...sometimes I think that's the best way to say things

I like ice cream...it can always put me in a good mood :)

I like movies...so much i want to be in them...action and cute love stories are my fav :)

I like being around people...people i have so much fun with

I like upbeat music and songs with great lyrics

I like to travel...experience is the best way to learn i think

I like to read...i could read all night and never put the book down

I like to act....it's my passion

I like it when people talk to me first...I dont know...it makes me think they really do want to talk to me

I like the warmth of the sun, the feeling you get when your in an awesome mood, a cold soda, a good song, and thinking back to the awesome memories I have.


I like my life...no matter what ups and downs come along :)

Sunday, October 10, 2010

The best love story...

This is going to sound crazy but,

I wish Jesus didn’t have to die!

WHAT?!?!?! Gasp!

CHILL. I will explain myself- Of course.

You see I am so thankful and grateful that He did that and I feel so honored and yes i know He rose again but I got to ask myself: Why me? Why did someone SO completely beyond perfect die for me? For us?

I don’t feel worthy enough of that! I mean the Son of God coming down and killing Himself for me! Going through all that horrible pain for us! I wish there was another way so God didn’t have to send His Son to be killed. I know, I know there isn’t another way. I am not crazy. I just don’t feel good enough for that.

Truth? I am not-we aren’t. But He loves us SOOOO FLIPPIN much that He would do that. It was like an everlasting love letter to all of us. God saying we were to die for. Crazy isn’t? it just blows my mind sometimes! Because I am just like “AGGG I don’t deserve this!” Then other times I am so thankful and happy that He did. I want to scream and go crazy!

I just think it is amazing and the best love story anyone could ever tell. THE BEST. It’s a love letter to you and you and you…and me!

And I couldn’t be more honored! No boy could ever out beat this! Not even close!

Saturday, October 9, 2010

not everyone likes someone...

“everyone always likes someone.”

Hm. I would have to disagree with that. I don’t like anyone-honest. I know, I know, crazy right? I mean I usually do! But nope! No crushes no….nothing. Depressing? Maybe, but in a way its nice.

The pressure of liking someone at this age is kind of wild-who do you like? Does he or she like you? Why do you like them? Question after question is made when you tell them who you like at that time and even before you tell them there is more pressure- please tell me! I promise to keep it a secret! You love me, so tell me! COME ON PLEASEEEEEEE!!!!

It almost becomes unbearable.

Lucky for me though, all I have to say is “no.” Because truth is…I don’t like anyone! Sometimes it can be a litte boring but other times it is actually kind of nice. Less drama can always put you in a brighter mood!

I mean you could always lie and say “no”, even when you do but…as I said before the truth always comes out. That also means that (sometimes) although your close buddy may keep it a secret for a little while …the truth will be out and your crush will know. AWKWARD.

Anyways, I think it really is possible not to like anyone; whether it is because you’re not worried about it or there is no guy or girl to really like. Fewer choices can keep you from liking someone-(or becoming desperate, but that’s another time, another blog post. haha )

So, false. Not everyone has to be liking someone. Don’t be worried about liking someone or who likes you! Enjoy the single life! You might see life a little differently when you aren't so caught up in the “who-likes-who world” haha!

truth...

In high school you are almost guaranteed drama. It is just the way it works! Why we all cant get along is beyond me! Maybe because it makes school not as boring or maybe we all just haven’t figured out who we are and we all just need to grow up.

ONE (because there are many) of the worst feelings to get is when you find out someone has been lying to you the whole time and you end up looking like the fish who fell for the bate on the fishing hook! Everything they told you is a complete lie no matter how you sliced it. Don’t you just want to hit yourself with something and say “WOW STUPID!” ? I do.

Sometimes I wish I would find out if things were true or not before I just hop onto the naive train. I hate it when I find out someone lies to me. They lost my trust and now I have to question everything they say. That doesn’t sound like a good friendship to me.

Friends have each others back no matter what and are always real with you . Their not a true friend if you only find them lying to you. It’s even worse when they tell you things people are saying about you-and its COMPLETELY not true! All along you feel like crap and your self esteem goes to a low point. Maybe their just trying to not loose you or they just want you to be their friend but when it all comes down to it-the truth comes out. When that happens everything blows up and you possibly loose a friendship.

We all hate being lied to-that’s just a fact, but we can decide who is and who isn’t your true friend. True friends- even the name has the truth in it.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Just an Idea...

High school is a crazy ride and sometimes people would like to see the real legit stuff that happens in it. So I have decided to have a new blogg called "Letters out of high school" they aren't made up and they are from real people who wrote about what they are really feeling. I did not write any of them and if I do I will write "sincerely me" or my name got it? alright! :)