Sucks...

I'm so lost in everything. Ugg.

3 words.

High.School.Sucks.

basically...

*sigh* *BIG sigh*

:'(

Blogging ain't easy...

Blogging is not an easy thing to do.

At first it's addicting and you have plenty of things to write about. Your advice, stories, problems, quotes, and so on. At first it's easy because maybe one person follows you. At first it's simple because you can write about whatever you feel like. As time goes on though, you may realize the tough job in blogging that you had so willingly volunteered yourself for.

Blogging may seem easy and fun but don't be fooled by the pretty personalized backgrounds and the interesting photos; It's tough. Post to post you have to decide what you will write based on your viewers. Even though it's YOUR blog you still want the satisfaction of people actually enjoying it. What will they think? How will they see it through their eyes? Does this actually make sense? A bunch of questions coming to your mind as you start to type a new post.

Another thing is the more people that follow you the less you can actually share your feelings on the blog. Like talking about certain things or your opinions on other topics. Some things you just can't write about because you don't want that person to know about it. It's A LOT of pressure no matter how you see it. One post could change someone's opinion of you and even though I say all the time about how you shouldn't care what people think, you don't want to be labeled.

Keeping up with it is a WHOLE other story. Life gets busy. And sometimes you just don't have the time to sit down and think of what you should blog about. Another thing is WHAT DO I WRITE ABOUT????? When it seems as though your life may be relatively uneventful it's hard to think of something actually worth posting to your viewers.

Blogging is a tough hobby. Many people call it quits because they just can't deal with it anymore. Not that I blame them, I actually understand because hey, I've deleted a couple of mine but if you keep focused and work it right you can successfully make it through blogging!

It might turn out to be a very good thing to have! :)

But God's word says...

“You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you," -Matthew 5: 43-44

Yeah....I am well. Let's just say not to hot at that verse. In fact, tonight I was talking about how much I hate that verse. Why? because has to be one of the most frustrating, challenging, verses ever in the bible. I certainly don't want to love my enemies....thats why they are my enemies!!! It's so much easier to be mean right back at them! To stab them when they stab me. BUT GOD'S WORD SAYS, to love your enemies and pray for them. Or as I like to say, Kill them with kindness.

I wouldn't be all buddy-buddy with them or tell them all your deepest darkest secrets but I would hold back saying something when they say something rude to me or do something when they do something horrible to me. At the end of the day you gained nothing and where does it get you? deeper into a hole of stress.

This week I am really going to try to remember the 4 important words PastorFurtick gave me this sunday, But.God's.Word.Says. In the english language , the word "but" cancels out with what you said before it and replaces it with what you said after it. So I try to remember that when I start complaining about something stupid. Cause His Word has the highest authority! And He should be my priority!

Learning...

I'm learning.

I'm learning not to care what people think. Who cares if he said she said this! I know its not true. I mean It gets really old when people go around saying someone said this or someone feels this way about you. I'm done with it all! who cares! I don't! All I need to focus on is what God has planned for me and what I need to be doing for Him - Not doing things based on whatever anyone else thinks of you. I'm going to be me no matter what. If you don't like me. Fine. If you do, awesome! Its just a big wad of stress that doesn't need to be added to the to-do-list. I'll wear what I want, be with the people I want to hang out with, talk to the people that talk to me and do my own thing. Its my life after all! Not theirs. They can go worry about themselves. Its really not that big of a deal.

Plus, when we get all caught up in "ohhh he said that" or "OMW SHE SAID THAT???" Things get way out of context. Besides, everyone is worried about themselves anyways. If they talk about you, they obviously don't care about you. Worry about yourself! I guarantee life will be so much better when you don't get caught up on what everyone thinks of you. The only one you should be concerned about is God.

So I encourage you to work on that! I'll be right in the same boat with ya on that one! I have major struggles with that. We can do this right?

Don't care what people think. You know yourself better then them anyways.

History.

Remembering.

You know, I think the most important subject for someone to learn is history. Why? Its just in the past?? Well that is exactly why.

You see learning history is very important because we, as citizens need to take the right of being able to learn from the past. When we decide it doesn’t matter we end up believing everything you hear in the news. I mean you see people now trying to erase our history. Such as God being a huge part in out Country’s victory? How bout the pledges? “Under God” Some think that wasn’t really apart of it. Or now, they are trying to say the Holocaust never happened. Well, if you never learned it then you would go along and believe whatever the government says. Because. you. think. They. do.

Well, NEWS FLASH! They aren’t. In fact plans that they are deciding to make now to make the America “better” are similar to the ones Presidents have used in the past. Well If it was stupid and didn’t work back then it most certainly isn’t going to work now! That is a sign of insanity my friends. And just plain. Ignorant.

It just blows my mind about how many people are willing to believe whatever. You need to know your history. Its important. Because then if You stand for nothing you will fall for anything! Making America corrupt one step at a time....

Too cool...

You know what I hate. ABSOLUTLYY HATE??? When people act like they are too cool for God. They laugh when they should be listening and they go around making a joke out of it. It has to be the most frustrating thing to me! I mean are you really that self conscious to close your eyes and just listen to someone pray?? That is not even anything! That is called common courtesy. Which seems to be lacking recently.

Oh I am sorry, you’re cool. Never mind then. You can just laugh away then. Wow. *rolls eyes* Just FYI you “cool” people. ITS NOT COOL. It's actually sad and really pathetic. If anything, you really are making a fool out of yourself. And ok, you aren’t into the whole praise God thing, which is also ( stupid) ok well what did God ever do to you?? What are we like five? Actually sorry, that’s insult to five year olds. I teach that age and they are more respectful WAYY MORE then you people are. And that just makes you look even more of a loser. So why don’t you put your big pants on and shut up! You aren’t even funny. You are a distraction and annoying.

You are a low, uncool, pathetic, loser! Oh and by the way, it makes you really unattractive when you act too cool for Him. Because just fyi boys, the girls around you are probably hating you at that moment. You then have become a joke and no girl will come to you. I mean if that’s what you want….then by all means keep going.

But seriously. Grow up. And get over your ego ( how you got an ego…is beyond me??) You are lame.

And maybe you think this is all a joke. And you think it’s all stupid. Well, then, I advise some help. You apparently have a hard time with believing the truth. Mental people have that problem. And they are in a mental institution. If that gives you any hint…

Exciting!!!!

OK! So this weekend, so far, has been a lot of fun! Especially because My church (Elevation) is opening their new campus!!!!! :D It's out in Blakeney and the building is pretty nifty, I must say!

Anyways, last night they had an event called The Night of Worship! It was a lot of fun working with the kids! ahhhh the kids :) they are soo cool and AWESOME!

I love working with the kids in Quest! They are so silly, and fun, and it makes you feel so awesome to share bible stories with them! They are so excited to hear them! I love getting up on stage and being goofy and teaching lessons! I mean, you can say anything in a funny accent and they will all laugh really loud! I cant wait to get started tonight for the first service at Blakeney! It's gonna be a blast! And I am praying that God will do something spectacular with the lives of the people who come and even in the little kid's lives!

My church truly is my 2nd home. I love it and I know that it's the church God wants my family to be. In fact, seeing the little kids smile and run to you because they are so excited to see you, is probably one of the best things to see.

I can't wait to see what God has in store for this church, for this city, and for the people who visit!

I truly do hope that people far from God will be filled with life in Christ!